SOMETHING SPECIAL
We were blessed with the divine Paadanamaskaara for the VIdya Vahini training camp held at Puttaparthi on 12th February 2011.
All were eagerly waiting in the queue to get into the first row for the divine dharshan. I and Anitha got late as we had to keep our books and pens in the room before entering the dharshan hall. Our friends somehow managed to keep two spaces for us in front of the queue with them. We were informed to gather in Poornachandra hall for the divine dharshan. My mind and heart were in a blissful state and I felt like smiling to everybody. When the shutter opened, ladies were allowed to get in first according to the protocol 'ladis first'. I seated at the third position in the second row. We were seated lengthwise running the divine path in between two rows.
Bhajans were singing outside in Kulwant hall and thousands were waiting there for Swami's dharshan. Lucky ourselves, just 300 in a special hall, waiting for the divine dharshan. After an hour or so, Swami entered Poornachandra in his wheel chair. For the first time in my life Iam seeing Saima this close. Still that dharshan is in my eyes. Unlike previous dharshans, I didn't cry or weep or was not witha heavy heart. But I was completely happy and was in a blissful state of mind. I was smiling widely to Swami. Swami patiently went through all the files shown by the faculty members of the Vidya Vahini Project in detail and heard them kindly and gave instructions. Swami blessed them with giving Paadanamaskaara and vibhuthi packets. At that time I remembered my argument with Saima last day:
"Swami, I don't want dharshan if you are gonna give dharshan from such a great distance. If it is gonna be like this, there is no point in you telling us that this is not Swami's home but our amma's home. When a child comes to her amma's home, obviously amma will take care of the child very much and will ask about her well being. But, what is happening now? You are giving a distant dharshan, as if we have never known each other.!"
After Swami had gone through all the files, He moved the wheel chair to where we were seated. Saima flowed like a breeze carrying the fragrance of divine eternal love; Saima moved like a drizzle cooling the heated hearts and minds with the divine eternal love. I could feel Swami like an ocean of love which has no starting point and no end point, concentrated and confined to a small lovely pure human form; an unimaginable vastness tapped in a little matter. Swami moved directly to our row and I felt so happy (beyond words and explanations) and I smiled blindly widely to Swami. Saima asked, "Ennamma...:" ":Ennamma..." to us as if he was replying my argument of last day. In reply to my demand, Swami looked directly to my eyes kindly and I called out "Swami..." I felt like He nodded in yes. Suddenly I took Paadanamaskaara and for a moment everything went blank; the whole world, everyone and evrything had gone far away from me and it was Swami and myself only. Unknowingly I started crying. I felt like Swami quenched my thirst which was there for years; I felt like I got the whole universe as gift; I felt like getting something for which I was yearning for lives.
Just imagine, how it will be, getting God's Paadanamaskaara. Still I can't believe the moment. Still I doubt, was that a dream?! Swami's Paadam is soft and I sensed warmrh at the moment I touched Swami's feet. I don't know what happened next! I burst into tears and hid my face in my hands with which I touched the divine feet. I felt like doing Abhisheka with my tears to Swami's feet. Everything happened all of a sudden. Now I wish, that moment to be paused.
Saima..., I love you so much. Give me the power to do youir works more. Swami, please make me a tool in all your works. Iam chasing you Swami..I wan't you..Swami....my beloved Saima.... I love you sooooooo.......................MUCH...
We were blessed with the divine Paadanamaskaara for the VIdya Vahini training camp held at Puttaparthi on 12th February 2011.
All were eagerly waiting in the queue to get into the first row for the divine dharshan. I and Anitha got late as we had to keep our books and pens in the room before entering the dharshan hall. Our friends somehow managed to keep two spaces for us in front of the queue with them. We were informed to gather in Poornachandra hall for the divine dharshan. My mind and heart were in a blissful state and I felt like smiling to everybody. When the shutter opened, ladies were allowed to get in first according to the protocol 'ladis first'. I seated at the third position in the second row. We were seated lengthwise running the divine path in between two rows.
Bhajans were singing outside in Kulwant hall and thousands were waiting there for Swami's dharshan. Lucky ourselves, just 300 in a special hall, waiting for the divine dharshan. After an hour or so, Swami entered Poornachandra in his wheel chair. For the first time in my life Iam seeing Saima this close. Still that dharshan is in my eyes. Unlike previous dharshans, I didn't cry or weep or was not witha heavy heart. But I was completely happy and was in a blissful state of mind. I was smiling widely to Swami. Swami patiently went through all the files shown by the faculty members of the Vidya Vahini Project in detail and heard them kindly and gave instructions. Swami blessed them with giving Paadanamaskaara and vibhuthi packets. At that time I remembered my argument with Saima last day:
"Swami, I don't want dharshan if you are gonna give dharshan from such a great distance. If it is gonna be like this, there is no point in you telling us that this is not Swami's home but our amma's home. When a child comes to her amma's home, obviously amma will take care of the child very much and will ask about her well being. But, what is happening now? You are giving a distant dharshan, as if we have never known each other.!"
After Swami had gone through all the files, He moved the wheel chair to where we were seated. Saima flowed like a breeze carrying the fragrance of divine eternal love; Saima moved like a drizzle cooling the heated hearts and minds with the divine eternal love. I could feel Swami like an ocean of love which has no starting point and no end point, concentrated and confined to a small lovely pure human form; an unimaginable vastness tapped in a little matter. Swami moved directly to our row and I felt so happy (beyond words and explanations) and I smiled blindly widely to Swami. Saima asked, "Ennamma...:" ":Ennamma..." to us as if he was replying my argument of last day. In reply to my demand, Swami looked directly to my eyes kindly and I called out "Swami..." I felt like He nodded in yes. Suddenly I took Paadanamaskaara and for a moment everything went blank; the whole world, everyone and evrything had gone far away from me and it was Swami and myself only. Unknowingly I started crying. I felt like Swami quenched my thirst which was there for years; I felt like I got the whole universe as gift; I felt like getting something for which I was yearning for lives.
Just imagine, how it will be, getting God's Paadanamaskaara. Still I can't believe the moment. Still I doubt, was that a dream?! Swami's Paadam is soft and I sensed warmrh at the moment I touched Swami's feet. I don't know what happened next! I burst into tears and hid my face in my hands with which I touched the divine feet. I felt like doing Abhisheka with my tears to Swami's feet. Everything happened all of a sudden. Now I wish, that moment to be paused.
Saima..., I love you so much. Give me the power to do youir works more. Swami, please make me a tool in all your works. Iam chasing you Swami..I wan't you..Swami....my beloved Saima.... I love you sooooooo.......................MUCH...
